Tuesday, 8 June 2010

Dissection Room




I was in the dissection room today with two of my friends. We decided to revise the anatomy of the upper and lower limbs in prep for our exam which is in about three weeks.




If you're marvelling at the image on the right, it's a picture of a man lying on a table and being studied by cadavers and a skeleton (and a skull on the stool!). I found it on Google and thought it quite amusing!

I clearly remember the first time I was introduced to the dissection room. I got lost on the way there because it's in the basement of the medical school. The first sniff of the room is always overwhelming as it's a strange mixture of formaldehyde, rotting meat and death. You sort of get used to the death part. It's the other smells you never get used to!

Anyway, back to my first experience. I went into the massive grave yard of a room (which was bright compared to what you see in movies). The sight of the bodies covered in white sheets on long bed-like trolleys was frightening. We all gathered around our designated cadavers. The lady, who was to be our tutor for the morning, was nice. She understood how terrified yet excited we all were. She explained the DR (Dissection room) rules to us and told us that we must respect and take care of the bodies and prosections, as they were donated to assist our learning. She then carefully revealed the cadaver's leg and asked us if we were OK. There was no skin or blood, just dried up muscle on bone, so it wasn't too bad. After revealing the whole body (leaving the face which was covered with a towel), she let us poke around and ask questions. I felt strange throughout. To be able to see death so close, yet be so far from it, is overpowering. DR always reminds me of death. Sometimes I find myself thinking of what that person must have been like and just that they were once living laughing individuals. I wonder if they had ever imagined being revealed head to toe, cut, have their organs taken out and put back in, and even have students say "Come have a look, this guy's got a wicked sciatic nerve!". I wonder what they must have felt like signing the form to donate their body to the hands of man. I will always wonder.

Sunday, 6 June 2010

Just.



Haven't written anything in so long so thought I'd give it a go. I've got my MBBS first year exams at the end of this month. Looking at the pile of text books and lecture notes on my desk is pretty depressing. But come to think of it, I was expecting this. I knew what I had gotten myself into... a life time of studying. The constant updating of knowledge as the medical world advances. I'm proud of where I am and how I got here. I still get flash backs of battling with time as an A level student. Sleepless nights thinking of whether my dream of becoming a doctor would ever come true. The tears that I had shed by each rejection of my medical application by my top 3 Universities. I'm so grateful. I almost never made it.
It's like it was yesterday, waiting to be interviewed for the chance of becoming a medical student. I didn't let my nerves get the best of me that day. I made many friends with some of the other candidates who were there, most of whom are studying with me on the course. The interview went well. Obviously. But I remember calling up my mum after and crying. She shockingly asked me what had happened and I replied "Nothing, it was good but... I just want it so badly."
It still hurts when I think of how I almost didn't get in. To cut a long story short; my health form for the Uni got lost in the post and as it hadn't met the deadline, they said that I wouldn't be given priority when they selected candidates on results day. On top of that, they offered me a place for three A's at A2 level. I got AAB. I thought that's it... I'm stuck with doing Biomedical Sciences in East London. My friends who had gotten all A's happily asked me what my results were. When I told them disappointedly, they told me to quickly call up my University as it wasn't too late. I called them up telling them that I was only 1% away from an A and if they could please consider my application. The friendly voice on the other end told me to wait. I waited. Those were the longest 2 minutes of my life. And in those 2 minutes I prayed with all my might. "Congratulations. You're in." Thank you God. It felt like a dream. I still can't believe it. But I'm here now and this is only the beginning of my journey. I still have to reach the top of the mountain... and that would mean going back to revising now. =)

Monday, 12 April 2010

Eclipse


La luna se esconde detras de las nuves
Y las estrellas la buscan,
Mientras la noche la acorruca
Suena con ver el sol.
Algún día su sueno se cumplirá,
El mundo los vera juntos...
Eclipse!

Translation:

The moon hides behind the clouds
And the stars look for her,
While the night hugs her
She dreams of meeting with the sun.
One day her dream will come true,
The world will watch them together...
Eclipse!

By Samia Hussain and Estefania Westcott 31/03/2010

GiRl


I look at the face staring back at me,
Her face is full of life yet marked with worry.
Eyes...
like two fading stars in the storm of the night,
twinkling with all their might.
searching for something... someone?
Rosiness fills her cheeks as she shies away.
Her lips,
smile at me with warmth...
wanting to say so much,
but her eyes do all the talking.
Hair,
a wild but tamed wonderous beast,
uniquely designed for her gentle face.
I sit here all alone.
And she sits there all alone,
in her own shadowless world.
We will wait for you.
that day will come.
When I will have you...
and she will have your reflection.

By Samia Hussain 10/04/2010

Saturday, 10 April 2010

Peaceful Silence


Everything is silent now.
Resting peacefully for an answer.
Let the sky sleep.
While the moon cherishes light.
And the birds fly at night.
Flowers mumble a few prayers.
Forgotten words, remembered tears.
Forbidden ground breaking apart.
Release the chain of trust.
Firm, hard, moulded well.
The bottomless depth of our heart.
Peaceful silence knows what to say.
Tomorrow promises a brighter day.

By Samia Hussain 31/01/2010

Bright Darkness



The waves crash against the sand,
Soft touch... or violent?
As the water breaks land.
Dragging pieces back with it,
Like it wants to remember,
Or dig a hole, leaving a death pit.
Stab a wound in my heart.
It will slowly seal back...
Like preserved priceless art.
Drench me with pain and fear.
I will not tremble,
As long as you are here.
My eyes... a waterfall,
In search of your silhouette,
Hiding, still hovering so tall.
A needle prick, flowing blood.
Must still carry on,
Hard work is love.
Going crazy, or crazy indeed,
My love for you ,
Is but a growing seed.
Wishful thinking in spite of doom,
If only we knew...
We'll meet His decision soon.
Must clean up life's mess,
Quickly gather the puzzle pieces.
I'm get ready for bright darkness.

By Samia Hussain 24/01/2010

Tuesday, 1 December 2009

Optimism in Islam


I remember the first time I came across the word "optimism", after being described as "too optimistic" in my UKCAT (Clinical Aptitude Test - a medical admissions test). At that time I wasn't quite sure whether I should jump for joy or cry my medical career away.
You would think that being positive is good and being negative is bad right? But I think that there are advantages and disadvantages to both ways of thinking, both being used in moderation (as in not getting chronic depression or jumping off buildings with confidence that spiderman will catch you).
Recently (which was yesterday!) I decided to check what my buddy "Mr Google" thought about optimism. Here are just a few of the many web definitions he presented to me: "the optimistic feeling that all is going to turn out well", "the philosophical opposite of pessimism" - this one is of no use if you don't know what pessimism is either - and " expecting the best, in this best of all possible worlds". The best definition I came across was "a general disposition to expect the best in all things", the genius deserves a medal.
Reflecting on the first few weeks of Uni i.e. Fresher's weeks, I recall having lecture after lecture on student welfare, drug and alcohol abuse, counselling for students and then there was a week on anxiety. The question is, why is it that the majority of our world today is suffering from depression or anxiety related disorders? Well, the causation is pretty straight forward... financial crisis, natural disasters, poverty, mourning, loneliness, or just plain hormones. But, why is the treatment stream still murky to the medical dimension? Well, most of the drugs sure
aint working... they're just making things worse!

You see,
this is where religion kicks in (
finally eh). Good expectation is a significant feature of belief - just one of the many wisdoms that the Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) passed on to us. And that is the reason behind my strange post title "Optimism in Islam". But I don't mean the just kick back, relax and watch the fire burn your house down as God will save you behaviour,
no, I mean thinking positively about a difficult situation during or after the tornado has passed. Not sure what I mean? Well, it'll all make sense in a little while I promise!
I received a forwarded e-mail a while back, and the thing with this e-mail is that its not those annoying ones that block up your mail box. It's one that leaves you thinking and stays in your head for a pretty long time. So here it is, exactly the way I received it, copy and pasted from the e-mail:

A story is told about a king in Africa who had a close friend that he grew up with. The friend had a habit of looking at every situation that ever occurred in his life (positive or negative) by remarking, "This is good, Allah Almighty knows best."

One day the king and his friend were out on a hunting expedition. The friend would load and prepare the guns for the king. The friend had apparently done something wrong in preparing one of the guns, for after taking the gun from his friend, the king fired it and his thumb was blown off. Examining the situation the friend remarked as usual, "This is good! Allah Almighty knows best."

To which the king replied, "No, this is NOT good!" and ordered his soldiers to put his friend into jail. About a year later, the king was hunting in an area that he should have known to stay clear of. Cannibals captured the king and took him to their village. They tied his hands, stacked some wood, set up a stake and bound him to the stake.

As they came near to setting fire to the wood, they noticed that the king was missing a thumb. Being superstitious, they never ate anyone who was less than whole. So after untying the king, they chased him out of the village. When the king reached his palace, he was reminded of the event that had taken his thumb and felt remorse for his treatment of his friend. He went immediately to the jail to speak with his friend.

"You were right," the King said. "It was good that my thumb was blown off." And he proceeded to tell his friend all that had just happened. "I am very sorry for sending you to jail for so long. It was bad of me to do this." "No," his friend replied, "This is good...Allah Almighty knows best." "What do you mean, 'This is good!' How could it be good that I sent my friend to jail for a year?"
The king's friend replied, "Remember that the Almighty knows best and if I had NOT been in jail, I would have been with you on this hunting trip, and they would have eaten me!"


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"He knows what is before them and what is behind them: and all matters return to Him (for decision)" (Al-Qur'an: Surah 22, al-Hajj, Ayah 76)

Do not judge things or events by their immediate outcome!

Allah, the Almighty, the Most High, is the All-Knowledgable, the All-Knower. He chooses to show us things. But sometimes we are not shown the wisdom behind some things. When we are confronted by circumstances that are not very pleasing, we are quick to say, "This is not good...." But...is it really like that? We might not know the purpose behind it. It might turn out to be a good thing. Thus, when we are faced with any situation we should not be too quick to judge and always remember that this life, the good and the bad of it, is a test. There is nothing that happens for no resaon. Perhaps sometimes we don't appreciate this reason, but patience in hardship, and gratitude in times of ease, are qualities we must try to develop.

(Adapted from An-Noor news, Issue no 363, 16th March 2007)


Well, it was good wasn't it? Yeh, thought you'd like it!

Let me just end here with a final message . The Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) said: 'How wonderful is the case of the believer! There is good for him/her in whatever happens to him/her - and none apart from him/her enjoys this blessing. If s/he receives some bounty, s/he is grateful to Allah, and this bounty brings good to him/her. And if some adversity befalls him/her, s/he is patient, and this affliction, too, brings good to him/her.' (Muslim:Suhayb)

That's all from me for now, please do leave your comments and further discussion topics. "Stay Good. Be Good. Do Good."